Went to Sentosa yesterday with who else, but the SS people; Cheryl, Angela and Lisa. In my opinion, it hasn't changed much since the last time I've been there erm some 1 or so years ago...But, something interesting to blog about this time round... yesterday's trip to Sentosa was probably the cheapest trip I had. Well, first of all, we didn't have to pay for the entrance fee cos of some connections that we had and secondly, our tickets to Underwater World were given to us (courtsey of the SS module). So, people, do choose the correct SS module if you want to enjoy yourself...And so, that explains the cost of the trip there. I guess Underwater World is the most expensive attraction in Sentosa...but if you are a marine lover, then I guess it's worth the money. Afterall, you do get to see some of the rarest marine creatures found in Singapore, SEA or probably in the world. I like Gracie the dugong the most. (Gracie, btw is a name given to the dugong not by me. My bro actually I gave it the name cos I like the name too much). Anyway, I like Gracie cos it looks so harmless, demure, docile and 'huggable'. But beside this dugong, there's many other marine creatures like the jellyfish, sharks, crabs and ...The trip to Dolphin Lagoon (complementary with the purchase of the Underwater World ticket) is also memorable. The performance put up by the 3 pink dolphins is explementary and has won the crowd's applause. They are such clever and gentle creatures. But it kind of pains me to think of the trainings that they have to undergo...I really don't know what to think of this. After Sentosa, we went to Vivocity's Food Republic for lunch...The deco of the food court was that of olden times...1920s China, similar to Food Republic Wisma. And since it's Christmas season, they have some Christmas decorations like snowflakes hanging from the ceilings which in Cheryl's opinion clash with the interior deco of the place. But the food there is quite ok. I'm not a fussy eater and so I don't think I'm in a good position to comment on the quality of food. After luch, the 4 of us went to the rooftop's wading pool and and sat there for the next few hours, though Lisa and Angela left earlier to get something...it was the most interesting part of yesterday. Yes, you've got that right. Just sitting there, taking pictures and enjoying the wind blowing against our faces. And, I must add on...I guess we really have an affinity for kids...boys especially. Cos, some boys came to our area and started splashing water among themselves and you know, soon enough, they started splashing water at us and using their baby talk to talk to us...cute! And, after Lisa and Angela left, another 2 boys came and the same thing happened, except that we understood what they were talking and got wetter. I tell you, it's all Cheryl's fault...ha...cos the boys liked me so much that they couldn't bare to splash water on me and ask me to move away...but as I'm a loyal friend, I couldn't possibly leave her behind...so I stood (or rather sat) by her and got splashed as a result...I think I'm wetter than her seriously...ha. But the feeling of the water soaking through your clothes and into your skin is kind of nice and enjoyable. I haven't had so much fun ever since many many years ago. Soon later, it started drizzling and we decided to seek shelter and continue to soak our legs inside the pool and continue talking. I'm surprised that the skin of my toes didn't get wrinkled. But last night, my legs did have the floating feeling as if I was swimming...ha. Nevertheless, it was fun just seeing how the kids had fun...it's like going back in time and searching for our beautiful childhood memories.
A note to my SS people: I love you girls! Take care and God Bless.

Some advertisment... Metamorphosis Camp- Be that Someone.

Interested? Contact me.

Evangelism Training (ET) Reloaded- 9th Dec 2006; 9am-6pm; M10 Seminar RoomToday's ET was fantastic! I didn't think that it would be this fun and inspiring in the first place. I just went there with the hope that I do fall asleep throughout the session; and I didn't. Instead, I was wide awake. Really have to thank the Crusade staff for making the session interesting. The session was also useful to me, in helping and guiding my walk with Him. Really. I've been feeling kind of spirutally dry these few days, but today's session and all the messages brought up really drawn me back to God. So, yep, praise God for that. During the session, we learnt how about "Living in the Spirit" (Satisfied? Booklet), and how to present the "What you see is not all you get" (WYS) Booklet. (this booklet is really interesting; more about that later), and also about Realising our Mission. I think the "Realising our Mission" section was the most insightful and helpful to me at this point in time. It helps me better understand the Great Commission and how to fulfill this Great Commission. What is the Great Commission?The Great Commission of our Lord is the greatest plan ever given to men, by the greatest Person who ever lived, concerning the greatest power ever revealed and with the greatest promise. The Great Commission is Jesus Christ's command given to the apostles and to every believer in every generation to make disciples. It involves building multiplying disciples in all their generations so that they can, in turn, saturate their nations with the Good News and train their own disciples to do the same, generation after generation. And there's a few reasons why we should fulfill the Great Commission and a few ways where we can help fulfill the Great Commission; first by starting with our immediate friends and family members. I believe that if every Christian commits him/herself to this mission, we would definitely create a phenomenon of 'movements everywhere', where everyone knows someone who truly follows Jesus. Indeed When the Holy Spirit has come upon you, you will receive power to testify about Me with great effect, to the people in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth, about my death and resurrection." Acts 1:8 (LB). Every Christian has this mission trusted upon him/her. The testimony shared about Dr. Bill Bright, co-founder of Campus Crusade for Christ is no doubt very inspiring. He was a bright student and graduated with top honours from school and had a very good, bright future (in the worldly context) ahead of this. But instead of embarking on this path, he chose to follow God and commit himself to fulfilling the Great Commission. Indeed, we can see the fruits of his labour today. Thank God for this one obedient man. The following information about Dr. Bill Bright is taken from ttp://billbright.ccci.org/public/. Bright was so motivated by what is known as the Great Commission, Christ’s command to carry the gospel throughout the world, that in 1956 he wrote a booklet titled The Four Spiritual Laws, which has been printed in some 200 languages and distributed to more than 2.5 billion people, making it the most widely disseminated religious booklet in history.In 1979, Bright commissioned the JESUS film, a feature-length documentary on the life of Christ, which has since been viewed by more than 5.1 billion people in 234 countries and has become the most widely viewed, as well as most widely translated, film in history (786 languages). In 1996 Bright was presented with the prestigious Templeton Prize for Progress in Religion, worth more than $1 million. The Templeton Prize isthe world's largest financial annual award. Bright donated all of his prize money to causes promoting the spiritual benefits of fasting and prayer.“He has carried a burden on his heart as few men that I’ve ever known. A burden for the evangelization of the world,” said Rev. Billy Graham, a long-time friend of the Brights. “He is a man whose sincerity and integrity and devotion to our Lord have been an inspiration and a blessing to me ever since the early days of my ministry.”Bright’s work through Campus Crusade for Christ will continue under the leadership of Steve Douglass, a long-time associate whom Dr. Bright tapped in 2001 as his successor. “Not only have I lost a dear and lifelong friend in Bill Bright, but the world has lost one of its greatest visionaries and faithful servants of Jesus Christ,” said Douglass. Praise God for Dr. Bill Bright.
So much for the indoor learning. Before we went out for Street-E (not some new dot.com term, but it stands for Street Evangelism), we have to check-out with a staff or senior- to allow them to check on our skills that we have learnt about street-evangelising. At this moment, I have to thank Weiyan for helping me refine my skills and also my testimony and also for giving me so many pointers and answering my doubts. Thank you so much for that, Weiyan.
And so, here cmes the Street-E part. We were supposed to go in pairs around to share the gospel. It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. At least the inital part where we have to take the first step to approach people to share the gospel with. But I'm glad that the Lord still send some people to us. Amen to that! I also have to thank Christine, Joanne, and Evan for guiding me as to how to go about approaching and sharing the gospel with the people. And to the many people who have given us their time to listen to us, many thanks. I hope you all have benefitted from our sharing. My prayers will be with you. And so, we first approached a Chinese national lady, who understands a little English. So, we shared the Chinese version of "The Four Spiritual Laws" (4SLs), in a mix of English and Chinese. I'm glad that she's very open to the idea of Christianity and willing to share with us. Though language was a bit of a problem, I'm very thankful that she can understand us. Next, we shared a little bit of the WYS booklet with 3 teenage girls. They're kind of reluctant in the first place, but it got a little better along the way. I really hope that they would go through the WYS booklet carefully and contact me in the event that they are interested to know more. And after that, we met up with the rest and tried to get more people to listen to the gospel, to no avail. But still, I'm glad for this Street-E experience. My very first. And so, everyone who's interested to know more about the WYS and Satisfied booklet or anything about Christianity and contact me and we'll arrange for a time to meet up to talk about this more. Really, I cannot emphasis this any more- I'm really nothing without God.

This is long time ago business...the trip to RMBR

Well, exams are now over and I shall keep my fingers cross for my results...
Anyway, the first post-exam activity this time round is kind of different...it's not the usual post-exam stuff I would do...like going for lunch and then followed by a walk in the mall or something like that...guess what we actually did?! We went to West Coast Park!!! and we walked there! Cool! Well, West Coast Park is actually kind of near NUS...it's just a brief 20 or so min walk from the Kent Ridge Terminal...depending on how fast you walk...The walk there is just an appetizer kind of thing...you wouldn't believe what we did there! At least I did not imagine I will do that kind of thing at this ripe old age...(but come to think of it, I think I'm still quite young... young at heart, oh, whatever). Anyway, back to the main point, we actually played in the West Coast playground and I kind of like that sort of fun... it's so different from my usual idea of relaxation and fun like catching a good movie and reading a good book with nice, hot chocolate in this northeast monsoon season...(come to think of it, I haven't finish reading Three Weeks with My Brother by Sparks...) yep, so, I was 'tele-transported' back to the time when I was young, say 12-13 years ago...the feeling of sitting up there...having the wind blow against your face, looking at all the wonderful creations of this earth...how I wish I am young again...
What adds on to the fun was the rain...it's the first time that i actually walked in the rain without an umbrella. I think walking in the rain can be kind of therapeutic.(and if my mum knows about this, I'll be......)And I seriously think that I will not fall sick due to this reason. Check with me again. But I seriously doubt I'll fall ill. After West Coast, we went to Pizza Hut for dinner...dinner was like the usual lunch kind of setting where you know, the main lead will crap and entertain us with lame, not-so-funny kind of talks...but crapping sessions help. The highlight of the evening...neo-prints! See i told you, we are young at heart. But then again, taking neo-prints is not just restricted to kids and teenagers...we saw a bunch of adults taking neo-prints too alright! I think they are just so cool! I must be like them too. Five, ten, fifteen, and even twenty years down the road, I'll be calling my friends and dragging them to take neo-prints with me...ha! I think adrenalin is building up in me...somehow the more I blog, the more excited I become...talk about the after-effect of blogging. There's so many things to think about now...i better stop writing here. Good night.
(In case you are wondering, the pics were PRETTY...the decorations, and everything else.)

And in case you want a closer look at breath-taking, pretty...erm...surrondings and ...

Labrador Trip

What is a Christian?
- By Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
but, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
so I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow!

Share this with somebody who already has this
understanding, as reinforcement.

But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others" can be dispelled.

I realise I haven't been writing a proper post in a long time...the last one-word post is simply to let people know that, yes, I'm still alive though not really kicking. Let's blog a little about the mid term break...how should I begin? Well, the break was filled with tuitions and more tuitions...cos the lessons on the previous week were postponed...how coincidental...oh right...and so, it was tuition from Mon, Tues, Wed, and Thurs...th HIGHLIGHT of the week was probably tues and fri when I met up with Cheryl, Lisa (on Tues) and Lydia (on Fri). It's been ages since I met up with that GREEN girl...we were at anchor all the way from the morning to night...except when we went for IKEA for a little while...old good anchor... i kind of miss that place...and oh, it was also on Fri that I finally ate the Secret Recipe cheesecake after a long, long time...how I miss it...talk about indulgance...i know it too well. So, that's the mid-term break for me...how interesting it was... Anyway, this week has been a quite a good week for me. It's the exam week. ANd i guess, you all know what's coming...i'll soon be free from tuitions. So, for this week's tuition sessions, I didn't really teach the kids (ok, they're not that young...but calling them kids sound nice), instead, I focus more on stress management, pep talks and all that...i know that i'm not quite qualified to talk about that...but hey, i've been through all that; and it's heartening to hear that one of my students went to St. Andrew's Cathedral to sit and quieten herself before my lesson. I guess I will miss all of them...i'll miss their inquisive nature... miss having them around...but we all have to move on with life...
Talk about moving on with life...Shirley announced during dg that she'll no longer work with crusade...how sad...i mean, we all loved her...i've been talking quite a lot to her...and she's a good listener...in addition, i have a great deal to learn from her in terms of my walk with God. But i guess we can still keep in touch...By the way, tml's Mid Autumn Festival. Got your mooncakes and lanterns ready? Enjoy.

Hey

It's the fourth week of school today! I guess I'm getting used to the pace of school and everything else. Today's Chem quiz was alright and I guess it's kind of irritating to be sitting in front of some guys who complaint about making some silly mistakes which caused him not able to get full marks! I'm not even thinking about full marks here, hello. A reasonable grade will do for me. Besides, it's all over, no point in complaining. My friend and I were like: "What's all that about getting FULL marks?" But that guy DO SOUND smart. And there's actually no harm in listening to him, except for all his complaints. Oh well!
So that's Chem. Maths lecture was alright as usual. I like Maths. Attending Maths lecture feels like going back to SA. The format of the notes were almost the same as those in college and the lecturer is nice enough. Besides, I like Maths. Singapore Studies were alright too with the girlies around. Cheryl and I are planning to study together on Friday; really hope that we WILL STUDY and bond as well. After all my lectures ended, I went for tuition session. I'm getting close with the kids. I'm not sure how I'll feel when we eventually stop these tuition sessions after the exams.
As for tommorrow, our DG will be doing the Crusade noticeboard. Oh, I don't know how it'll turn out; I haven't actually done up a noticeboard before, but I hope that everything will turn out nice and pretty. So, do look out for the Crusade noticeboard outside LT 28. Back to studying.

Wow! Today is the first time I blog since school started about 2 weeks ago. For the whole of two weeks, I’m busy with many different things; getting used to know friends from different modules, registering for tutorials and labs sessions and all. I remembered being very apprehensive about school on the first day of lecture. But, not anymore. Instead, I’m starting to LOVE school. LOVE sounds very extreme. But I do LOVE school now; especially the SS module. Today is probably the highest points of my life since school started. It must be because of the lunch cum bonding cum self-entertaining sessions we all had just now, before the guest lecture started. It was so fun, getting to know each other and crapping together. It was definitely not what I had expected from the SS module. I was not expecting to meet new friends who can click so well with me! Cheryl, Angela and Lisa! Thank you so much for making the SS module so fun and enjoyable. Thank you for the enthusiasm that you all had for the course. I remembered the first time we met. The only thing we all had in common is that we were alone in the huge LT 25 for the first lecture. I’m glad that I was alone then. If not, I don’t think I would have been friends with them! So, being alone is not so bad afterall.
I had my first Discipleship Group (DG) session yesterday with the nursing girls. I really want to thank God for giving me the opportunity to get to know and grow in Him through this group. I hope all of us will grow together and be true, living testimonies for Him. The spiritual support is great and much needed by me. I’m grateful that I can still turn to Him and for the spiritual support on campus.
Thinking back of everything, I'm more sure than ever that He has a good plan for me. He had meant for me to go to the course alone so that I can make new friends; if not for this, I would have stick with my friends. Of course, this is just one of the many many examples that happen in my daily life and spirtual walk with me. I hope that I will keep Him on the throne of my life and let Him guide me.

To impart, impact and not to impress- I'm still learning to do that. Seriously. I think I tend to be egoistic at times. Some times, not all the time. I'm still learning. I have lots of things to learn. Lectures commencing next week. Really need to learn to juggle lessons and tuitions. After all, common test and prelims are around the corner for my students, and some of them requested extra lessons. Really, they're hardworking students. Hope that they will learn as much from my lessons as possible. And I hope that I can be of some help to them. I want to impart them knowledge and skills, make an impact in their lives and not to impress them with my credentials. I don't want the glory for myself. The glory goes to Him, for whatever I do.

  

  

Every human being is alike in the basic sense that they have an aim in their live; either a life-long aim or many aims at very other point of their life. In my opinion, I think that many people will have the latter instead of the first-mentioned, especially in these days when kids and children are constantly being bombarded my parents and teachers alike to do goal setting for their PSLE, “O” and “A” levels. That’s already 3 goals in the short life span of 18 years. And this is not mentioning the little target settings for minor tests and C.A.s. And as one proceeds on in life, one will be overwhelmed by the number of goals that the society expects of the individual and what one expects from oneself; achieving financial stability, career advancement, starting a family, bringing up one’s own children in the best possible method, planning for retirement so on and so forth.
The above passage may have a negative tone to it. But I’m definitely not saying that having goals and aims to achieve is a bad thing. Instead, I’m implying that the exact opposite is true. Goals and aims can really spur a person to work hard. Without them, it simply feels like I’m missing something in myself. The something can be the drive to work, or anything else. I know it just too well. I mean, for myself, I’ve always have had goals and aims to work towards to. In secondary school, it was to study hard and score at least 5 distinctions for the “O” levels so that I can have my name up on a star and displayed along the stretch of walls leading to the classrooms. I achieved that goal of my 3years back. Then, the next goal was to study hard to make it to the university of my choice. I achieved that as well. And I find that though I spent the last 4 to 5 years studying very hard for the “O”s and “A”s, I find that period of time very well-spent and I don’t regret not spending as much time with my family so that I can focus on studying. (Well, at least I’m not regretting now, maybe in the future, I don’t really know). It was because of the aims that I had that pushed me to study hard so that I can achieve them. And now, after more than half a year of not studying, I feel that I have lost the momentum and the drive to do anything. I figured that it’s the aimless lifestyle that caused this. Other than preparing for tuitions and tutoring, I’m not looking forward to anything else. One can argue that to lead a relatively free and easy life can be an aim. Yes, this may be the lifestyle that many is looking for, but it’s definitely not the kind of lifestyle I want to lead. I feel the need to be doing something constructively during most of the time. This explains the restlessness in me right now. Hopefully, when school starts, this will change and that I will have a aim to work towards. I guess, that aim will be to balance studies with tuition assignments.

I’ve just watched I Not Stupid 2 on disc last night. All right, I know, I’m sort of outdated…but hey, it’s better late than never. And I didn’t regret staying up till about 2am to finish the two discs. In my opinion, it’s time well spent. And yes, all the media reports about the movie and the comments from movie and independent critics are right; the show really does make even hearts of metal tear. I myself use up four pieces of Kleenex, and I believe I’m not the extreme case. The movie does have its humorous side as well. Such as how Jerry’s mischievous friends tricked Jerry into believing that he got his female classmate pregnant. The scene featuring the adults speaking the lingo of the teenagers brought laughter as well. Just their tone and pronunciation can make one roll on the floor, laughing. But overall, I guess it is the messages that the movie sent to the audience that make it stand out from other mediocre, commercial movies. I don’t know about others; but for myself, I can pick up about three to four points/ messages from the movie.
The most obvious point is about how parents should discipline their children. In the movie, Tom’s parents are busy working to even enjoy dinner with their children, not to even mention teaching and communicating with them. To the parents, Tom is basically a good-for-nothing. Nothing that he does ever pleases them; not even when he won the championship for the national blogging competition. In addition, they often misunderstood his intentions, leading their already sour relation to worsen. I know every parent have their own method of disciplining their children, and it is thus not very fair to comment. But as far as I’m concern, I think that the least parents should do is to spend some time with their children. It’s not about quantity, rather, it is the quality of time that make the difference to the upbringing and behaviour of the child. If parents do not spend time with their children, children may turn to their friends for company. Should they fall prey to bad company, I don’t wish to imagine that scenario. So, that’s the part about disciplining the child as a parent.
Secondly, we shouldn’t blame the parents all the time. I think as children, we should also put ourselves in our parents’ shoes and think from their point of view. We always ask our parents to do and buy things for us and behave as if they owe us a living. But truth of the matter is that they don’t. Why not pause and think about what we can do for them? If we can do them proud by doing well in our exams, I don’t think our parents will be unhappy. If we can grow up and mature and not anger them, I don’t think they will nag and scold us. Take me for instance, I try not to anger my parents by not quarrelling with my brothers. I make them happy by putting my best efforts in every thing I do. Those who know me well will know that my present to mum and dad for Mothers’ and Fathers’ Day, their birthdays, Christmas, and what not, is what I work hard every year for; my exam results. So long as I put in my best efforts and do well, they will be happy, which is something that they always wanted from us. I guess, it is not that hard to please parents after all. In a sense, they are easier to please compared to us, don’t you think so?
Thirdly, it is about how schools and teachers should discipline their students? I am rather concerned about this point since I am going to teach in about four to five years time. In my own opinion, I don’t think I will be a teacher who will use violence and corporal punishment to punish the students. I would prefer to punish them constructively and use logic to reason with students. If they do not listen, I’ll have to resort to nagging and in the worst case scenario, I will approach my ‘saviour’; the discipline master. Hey, there is a reason for the existence of discipline masters/ mistresses in schools. But that is in the worst case scenario and I personally hope that I will develop my own methods of dealing with my students. Well, that’s something to worry about in four to five years time.
And lastly, I’ve also thought about how I would teach and discipline my children in the future. I know that future is not so near, but nevertheless, that taught did came to my mind. Would I be very strict with my children? In my opinion, it is very tiring to be strict with children. You’ve got to have loads of energy as you need to monitor and correct their behaviour, actions, speech, school work and other aspects. Would I bring up my children like how my parents brought me up? I always thought that my parents are not those types of strict parents who will force their children to study and study. On the contrary, my parents never force us to study, neither did they force us to learn things we don’t want to learn. In fact, sometimes, when they see me studying for five to six hours consecutively, they would tell me to take a break or something. I guess, how I’m going to bring up my children is something I will have to think about in the future.
All in all, this movie really brings across many points worth pondering over. It’s a movie worth watching and shedding your tears over. The four Kleenex has being put to good use. But seriously, when was the last time you praise someone?

Just got my laptop...Compaq Presario...with white piano finish...that's what caught my attention first...so, this is the first post that I'm using the laptop to type and post. I've always wanted to get a white laptop, but the more common white colour laptop is iBook is more expensve...but the price of compaq is more affordable...so I decided to get this limited edition before it gets sold out...besides, I thought that it would be good to get to know the functions of the laptop and get used to using it. And that's the laptop...
These few days have been tiring for some unknown reason; probably I've been sleeping late and waking up early. And I've been thinking a lot...about school stuff, wondering what's uni is going to be like and other stuff. I don't deny that I'm looking forward to school, but on the other hand, the prospects of school and exams seem to daunt me. The idea of having to manage finances, choosing and bidding for modules and all...I guess there's always challenges for every new beginning and it is always these challenges that make school worthwhile, fun and meaningful. Though I miss those days of wearing the school uniform, the idea of starting a new phase of eduacation process seems exciting. And I really have to pray to God to help me get oriented and used to uni life. Prayer is the best source of strength.

  

Well, I like what I'm doing now; reading the books that I've always wanted to read, surfing the internet, sitting in front of the idiot box, preparing for tuition, giving tuition and so on... it's a reaxing lifestyle, I would say. But not very much fulfilling except for the reading and tuition part as they keep my brain alive. Nevertheless, this long break before uni starts is welcomed. I've never rested like this before.
Anyway, two Saturdays before, I've signed the agreement. I really have to thank Uncle Alex and Auntie Chris who agreed to be my sureties. And so I guess, the next nine years or so will be good and fulfilling. I certainly hope so. And last Friday was SAJC 29th College Day. I'm still secretly excited about it. I got to meet up with people whom I otherwise would not have met. And going back to school sort of bring back the memories of school life. Plus, choir performance was great. I mean, they are much better now...which is the reason why I do not regret buying the concert tickets. Giving tuition is wonderful. It gives me an immense sense of achievement when I see my student improves. And it makes you think; think of how to best explain concepts to the students, and how to plan the lessons and so on...all these, help to keep the brain working in the midst of a long break from school and studies.
To end things off, I'll share a little secret: I'm excited about starting uni. It's no longer a secret.