Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

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Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life. You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first. You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker. You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your World View

You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others. You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances. You are essentially a content person. Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior. You are moral by your own standards. You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion.

What Is Your World View?

Your Blog Should Be Green

Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff. You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas. However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul. You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 18 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting. You focus on living a quality life. You're not easily impressed with novelty. Yet, you easily impress others.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

Phew...Prelim is over... I shall keep my fingers cross for the results and pray hard for it. Now, I shouldn't ponder over my results...so plans for today and tommorrow? Well, I don't really plan my post-exams activites; cos 1. I have the time to do what I want to do and 2. post-exam period is supposed to be free and carefree (at least for me) , so who would want to set a "timetable" for what one wants to do during this time? Perhaps a good nap this afternoon and then leave everything to tommorrow? And oh, I still have incomplete tutorials which I have to complete them...I better complete them so that I will have an easier time catching up with the momentum when school resumes on Wednseday. As for now, I think I'll go and have a long and relax lunch.

18days to prelims! For those for have studied and finsish studying, they must be like :" Prelims?! Huh?! I've finish revising and now, I'm actually preparing for the "A" levels!" Ok, I shall stop this sacrasm. I think that not many people among us dare to say that. Many must be feeling frantic, scared, lost...all because of the prelims, or rather, have not started studying for it. Who can we blame but ourselves? School work, tutorials, lecture tests,...are all bogeymen and excuses! Truth is, we lack the discipline to settle down to our work. It's all about the mind. Right now, I just want to encourage all those out there and myself to work hard for the prelims and harder for the "A"s. The joy of getting good grades is definitely worth it. Also, for those feeling lost and alone, turn to God; talk to Him and pray, for God so loved us that He gave us His son. If He can carry the world upon His shoulders, I'm sure He will carry us through. Seek and you will find; Knock and it shall be open unto you. With hard work, determination, faith and God, I'm sure that we will go through these smoothly and achieve great results.

26 days to prelims. That's as of today. In about 8 minutes time(that is probably the time I finish writing), it will be down to 25 days. 25 days. 600 hours. 36000 minutes. 2160000 seconds. Wow. Imagine I must work harder and harder as the seconds approach 0. Really. I really felt restless for the past few days. It seems like work is piling up. All right, it's not an illusion. Work IS indeed piling up. It's like you are going to school and having more homework to be completed each day. There is so much work to be done that I hardly have the time to revise and practice. It seems to be homework, homework and more homework. You may have seen people having so much free time. At least they look like they are enjoying life and have plenty of time. Well, they may belong to one or more of these groups of people:
1. The JC1s
2. People who have 3 subjects.
3. People who skipped lectures and/ or tutorials to do their own work.
4. People who have really good time management.

I'm not blaming them or saying anything mean about them. It's just that time is not on my side. I think I would have to manage my time better and really study more effectively and efficiently. Though time is not really on my side, I am sure that God is. I have always put my trust in HIM and I will continue to do so. All honour and glory shall go to HIM.
" I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

There are some adults in our society who make some obviously silly decisions. Look around your house, your school or workplace. I'm sure it is not that difficult to spot these adults. I'm not exactly condeming these people for the sake of doing so. If their silly decisions affect only themselves ONLY(which is highly impossible). then I am in no position to make any comments. However things would be different if that silly decision affects almost everyone adversely. There are obivously such people in our midst, though I hate to admit it. They could not and did not give sufficent justicfications to the decisions they had made and the whole thing seem so senseless and nonsensical. This certainly do no one any good and it amplifies the ugliness of the adult or the person; firstly, for those who have to abide by the decision (because they are bound by the school rules or company rules) will be adversly affected and for that decision-maker, it really reflects on his/her laspe of logical thinking. While we have some reasons to be angry with that person and the decision, we should not be overly angry, for it do no good but harm to our body. Instead, cool down and attempt to figure out why that decision was made. If that fails, talk to that decision-maker. If you really think that it's senseless, then iron and reason things with that person. If he refuses to do anything, there's nothing one can do. But rest assure that the person will not be well-respected by many.

The biomedical quiz session with the senior was so informative till the point that my brain is so saturated. Anyway, that's not a bad thing considering the fact that I have only read the syallbus and had only biology knowledge that will only cover not even half the syallbus. Besides, he had prepared some notes and I had borrowed some books from the sch library on the human anatomy that will be, I think, useful for the SPOTS section. At least, by next sat, I will be prepared for the quiz. I hope.

I've gotten back my BT results...well, all except bio essay. I do not feel exceptionally depressed or joyous. Not so depressed because I guess I did alright and that there are many who did worse. However, I'm not rejoicing for reason that I did not improve. It's very hard for some people to understand cause I did better than them and I think it's rather insentive of me to talk to them about how I'm feeling. But to be really honest, I'm really tired to stay at where I am, and not moving forward. Only some people understand that sort of tireness. I'm not saying that it's going to stay like this. I'm definitely not going to like my results stay like it is...I'm going to do something about it. With only a few weeks to prelims, something is going to happen before I can achieve what I want. I'm going to move forward and peak at the right time. But sometimes, people do not feel like working hard to achieve their goals. I think the reason is the lack of faith, belief, motivation and inspiration. I think that the latter 2 factors are really important. For me, the College Day last Friday was itself an inspiration and motivation. The pride and glory to be able to come back to receive any prize are really enticing reasons for me to work hard. The desire to excel and get into the course of my choice is another. And last of all, the desire to want to do well and glorify God's name is a crucial point. To be able to do well in everything that God has plans for motivates me to do all things well and good; and all honour and glory shall belong to Him. I think after writing all these things down, I'm feeling better. I'm going to do everything I can (of course, with the strength from God) to achieve better results for prelims and the 'A' levels. There can be miracles, when you believe( But personally, I think this is not enough. One needs to work hard, work smart. Only then, with faith and believe, will you create and achieve the results one set out to achieve).

Here...there was this cadbury ad on tv recently that goes something like "wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury......". The tune was really catchy and overall, the ad caught my attention and the tune got into my head...but not the lyrics. So, for those who are like me, who know the tune but not the lyrics, here goes the lyrics:

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury
Driving in the car would be a tasty treat
Changing gear would soon become a problem
Cadbury Dairy Milk is so good to eat
You'll be greeted with an exclamation
When you arrive at your destination
Wouldn't it be nice.

Phew! BT 2 is finally over...these 4 days has been like...not too sure how to describe it either. Anyway, shall not ponder over it too much and I will definitely be keeping my fingers cross on the results. I haven't really decide or plan what to do for the next 4 days...I think I'll be taking a break, that's for sure and maybe finish off some tutorials so that I won't be lagging behind. It doesn't feel too good to be behind time and eveything. Oh, there's one thing to look forward to. The outing with the gi and gang this sat/sun; depends. gi is back! So exicited to see her...anyway, that's the weekend. As for tommorrow, I'm not too sure what I'll be doing also. Perhaps get some rest and all...well, leave tommorrow for tommorrow itself, I say.

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Has been a while since I last wrote. Well, no reason for this entry; simply feel like writing; that's all. Nothing much has happen since the last time. Nothing interesting. It's all studying and studying. Sometimes, I really don't feel like studying. Opps! But, when that happen, I would just sit down and pray. Really, the wonder and power of praying. I really believe in it. I trust that the Lord will give me sufficient rest and time. I know He will. For those out there feeling tired and stressed out from all the studying, take a break from studying (a short one) and close your eyes and and speak to God. Trust me, it really works. I also believe that if one puts in one's best effort, the Lord will do the rest. Someone special once said:" Do your best and God will do the rest." I'm a believer of that.

The first week of hols had just flown past. Was a really busy, but fulfilling and meaningful week for me; esp the Life Science Camp and the Famine Camp.
Now that the second week is here, it's really study time! The stress is not here YET but I'm quite sure that come week 3 and 4, I'll be pulling my hair out. It seems scary to note that I'm not really ready to take the "A"s at the end of the year. I mean, exactly two years ago, I was really revising for my "O"s. Perhaps it's because of BT 2. I don't know. I really felt I'm not up to it YET. It really seems a lot of work and effort. I think I must really plan my time and really revise and study. No more crapping for me; it seems really hard...and maybe I won't blog for weeks...maybe...perhaps...I don't know.

What would you do when someone call you dumb and stupid? Well, I would study real hard to show that person that I'm not what he/she claim that I am. But what would you do when someone call you a smartie and all that? Do you not study and prove that person wrong? Of course not! You obviously have to study even harder to prove that you're not just a smartie; you're a genius. Ha, but seriously, the above two situations did not happen on yours truly; but I guess that the probability of someone being in either one situation must be high. (although not 1). Anyway, I feel that the youngsters nowadays (I admit, me included) often call someone stupid or dumb. But sometimes, it's really unintentional and that it is just our way of communicating. The person called "stupid" may appear all right on the outside but who knows that beneathe that strong, steel-hard cover may exist a fragile and low self-esteem. Now, consider the second case when someone is being labelled as a smartie. This may lead to several outcomes.

1. The person may become proud and look down upon those who are not as intelligent as he is.
2. The person may become proud and not study and his grades suffer.
3. The person may become stress and feel the pressure to stay at the top.
4. etc...

[Author's note: This list is not exhausive. There are certainly more outcomes and consequences]

This is not written to discourage people from priasing other's good work. But certainly scolding someone stupid is definietly an unplesant thing to do and one should avoid doing that as far as possible. Afterall, at the end of the day, who can really judge the levl of our intelligence?

Chem S paper training today. Was really reinspired! All thanks to Mr Wu...(think that's his name). Anyway, he's a few years older than us and he can do all those questions so easily...if he can do it, so can i. Take home msg for the day is: Even though you may not know what the answer is, it does not matter a lot. It's the thinking process and analysis part that count. Plus, he make the questions sound simple and when it comes to doing it...it's like...no sweat! So, did I hear that it's impossible to get a distinction for S paper? Well, this is not to say that I will definitely get a distinction...it's just an encouragement for myself and those out there...Distinctions...here I come...Better get to studying before my "reinspiration" becomes uninspiring.

The result is out- erm actually, it was out that fateful day...you guessed it! We only managed a silver. I kind of expected it, but it's just that people around me were all wanting a gold. In addition, we sounded there in the morning. But the moment we came out of the hall, we just know it. The announcing of the results merely confirms our knowledge and expectation. I know it's saddening, disappointing, and all...nevertheless, we must take comfort that it's not any worse. Plus, there's always another syf...our juniors will definitely achieve that shimmering tittle for us!
A note to the band members: Congrats on the Gold with Honours. All your efforts had certainly paid off, and the fruits of labour can't be any more sweeter. Work hard for the presentation in July and do the school and God proud. Up and On!

Just got the news for the results of the various performing arts groups of St Margs in this year's SYF. (a little slow I know, but still...)

CCA Group SYF Award 2005
Chinese Dance- Gold with Honours
Indian Dance- Gold with Honours
Symphonic Band- Gold
Choir- Silver
Malay Dance- Silver
Modern Dance- Silver

So proud and happy for them(esp for the band)...Hope that they continue to train and practise harder and achieve better results in two years' time.
Oh, I also heard that there is going to be on Youth Concert on 24th May in the school hall. The various groups will be putting up their winning syf performances.

Wow! It has been two weeks since I last blog...this two weeks really flew past...if I'm not wrong, the last time I wrote was after the choir concert; and after that, it was intensive choir already. A lot of people has been falling sick...fever, flu, sore throat...it's the weather (and the I think the stress and addition work...) . I really have a lot of work to catch up...bio, phy, chem...that is just tutorials...I haven't even started studying for my Bio and Chem tests that are scheduled to be on Tuesday...It's really scary...I have to study photosynthesis, homeostasis and the kidney...don't tell me that it's only 3 topics...there's really a lot to study for and to memorise! Oh no! And come Monday, yes, the labour day holiday, I'll be in school for choir practice, labouring away. Don't be mistaken. I'm not complaining or anything. I mean, one have to put in all the effort if one wants to achieve something. I think this is only fair and right. Erm, I think I better stop writing and get back to my work...

Choir concert was finally over...this month, i think literally flew past...really...it's like even before I blink my eyes and the month just passed...SYF is approaching in 2 weeks time and I know for sure that practices are going to be more hectic in this coming two weeks. CCA aside, I still have to study! I mean, who do not have to study? It's a matter of proirity...I mean ultimately, I would want to do well in my 'A's and no one is going to stop me from doing that. I know that this is hard work...I know it takes a lot... But I'm going to do it...I know I can.
During this 2 weeks, I'm going to manage my time well. I'm going to finish my tutorials even if I have practises everyday. I'm not going to fall behind in my tutorials. I'm going to do that. I trust in myself and of course, I know that God will provide me with the strength to do that.

That Settles It- Rhonda Rhea

I figured it was probably time to go on the current season's healthy eating kick. How did I know it was time? I called them "little sugar cravings," but when I caught myself shooting out of the car and landing almost instantly at the pantry door, I figured I'd probably already let the sugar-fest go on for too long. I was like a treat-seeking missile, with a chocolate target. When it gets that severe, not even the chocolate chips are safe.

It's also a clue that it's time to make some diet changes when I choose a Sunday School class by rating their doughnuts. "She's a good teacher, but she only serves glazed. Maggie's class always brings those chocolate-covered, custard-filled long johns." It's hard to compete with a good long john.

I guess the real clincher is when I catch myself digging through the toes of the kids' Christmas stockings for any leftover chocolate snowmen. That's especially a dead give-away if we've already moved into Spring.

Every now and then, I have to examine my sugar passion to make sure I'm not so out of balance that I outgrow all my clothes. I sort of examine my own evidence and testify against myself. If I've tackled a couple of my kids for the last Ho Ho, for instance, that about settles it.

I'm so glad Jesus settled the really big issues. We never have to wonder about His love for us. It's eternally more intense than any choco-need I'll ever experience. He proved his immense, unconditional, unshakable love when He died on the cross to make it possible for us to have a right and tight relationship with him. But if you examine the evidence (nevermind the Ho Ho's), you'll find that He went all-out to prove His power to save. The same power that saves us from sin raised Him from the dead. Now that settles it!

How glorious that we can serve a risen, LIVING Savior! Romans 8:11 says, "It stands to reason, doesn't it, that if the alive-and-present God who raised Jesus from the dead moves into your life, he'll do the same thing in you that he did in Jesus, bringing you alive to himself? When God lives and breathes in you (and he does, as surely as he did in Jesus), you are delivered from that dead life. With his Spirit living in you, your body will be as alive as Christ's!" (The Message)

Because Jesus is alive, we've been made spiritually alive too. Christ settled it all in one earth-rocking event. I loved being reminded again when we celebrated Resurrection Sunday, even if I didn't get to eat any of the chocolate bunnies.

There Is None Like You

There is none like you
No one else can touch
My heart like you do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like you

Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from your hand
Suffering children are placed in your arms
There is none like you




Heart Of Worship

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something's that of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart


I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You Jesus


King of endless worth
No one could express how much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath




So You Would Come
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious to His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
And everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives,
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Wow! Time really flies...It's now into the fourth month of 2005...Very soon the big 'A's will be coming...I've finally gotten back all my BT 1 results...I think I did relatively alright though there is still plenty of room of improvements... So grateful to the Lord for the strength and blessings that He has given me.
Had the first ever official Maths S-paper training today...it's really amazing you know... I don't really understand what is being discussed...the approach and all that stuff.. guess I have to put in more effort...everyone present seems to have an idea of what's going on...except me...oh well,...
Today is also the annual Life Concert organised by the SFC...well, all thanks to Shu Ai, I managed to get a good seat despite going in rather late...the concert was kind of different...it's like there's so many things happening all at once...usually in church, it's only worship and the messages...but here, there's sharing of testimonies...(erm, I guess that's why it's called a concert). Anyway, it's really inspiring to hear about how God had entered and made an impact on some people's lives. It kind of reinforces my idea of what my good Lord is like and strengthen my faith in Him. (and I hope that this is what the other people feels like as well).
The next one month is definitely going to be hectic...with the choir concert only 1 week away and SYF 2 weeks, I am absolutely sure that practice will be much more intensive than it is now...I pray for strength to pull through this...Somebody once said:" What doesn't kills you make you stronger." I want to be this stronger person. I know I can.

[By the way, I just found out that SMSS choir is going for SYF tomorrow, 8th April 2005. All the best and I'll be praying for all of you].

\\*psalms 19*//


The Heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament shows and proclaims His handiwork.



Day after day pours forth speech, and night after night shows forth knowledge.



There is no speech nor spoken word [from the stars]; their voice is not heard.


Yet their voice [in evidence] goes out through all the earth, their sayings to the end of the world. Of the heavens has God made a tent for the sun, which is as a bridegroom coming out of his chamber; and it rejoices as a strong man to run his course.



Its going forth is from the end of the heavens, and its circuit to the ends of it; and nothing [yes, no one] is hidden from the heat of it.



The law of the Lord is perfect, restoring the [whole] person; the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple.



The precepts of the Lord are right, rejoicing the heart; the commandment of the Lord is pure and bright, enlightening the eyes.



The [reverent] fear of the Lord is clean, enduring forever; the ordinances of the Lord are true and righteous altogether.



More to be desired are they than gold, even than much fine gold; they are sweeter also than honey and drippings from the honeycomb.



Moreover, by them is Your servant warned (reminded, illuminated, and instructed); and in keeping them there is great reward.



Who can discern his lapses and errors?

Clear me from hidden [and unconscious] faults.



Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins;

let them not have dominion over me! Then shall I be blameless, and I shall be innocent and clear of great transgression.



Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my [firm, impenetrable] Rock and my Redeemer.

Phew! Block Test 1 is finally over! Can you believe it? Well, I choose to. This whole week has passed really fast...I think it flew passed! Anyway, let's not talk and brood over Block Test...What is done is done; and as for the results, I'll keep my fingers cross.
As Good Friday and Easter Sunday approaches, I fervently hope that all will be grateful and thankful for what we have and who we are today. We are all God's children. I also hope that our faith in God will be strengthened and that we will always walk with God. Of course, we must not we grateful and thankful for all these only on Good Friday, Easter, Christmas...instead, give thanks and pray daily. This is what it keeps me going everyday. Put God in your heart and mind; Walk with Him!

It's really a long time since I last blog...had been busy this whole term and with the block test and concert...Shall not elaborate on that, I'm praying for strength to go on...
This afternoon, I went to NUS open house with Allele and my "mentor". It's quite inspiring to talk to the medical students there...[hm, better start doing something!] After that, we left for SAM to attend Ruth's wedding...The place was so romantic...the ambience and all...and plus, she looked so gorgoreous.
Before I finish writing this entry, I must mention some names as I have promised them to...[I did not realise that they have been reading my blog until yesterday]. So, here it goes: WEITING! YIN YIN! JIA JUN! Are you glad that your names are appearing here? Feel honoured? Ha! Stop reading now and study hard for BT 1...Remember that there will always be light at the end of the tunnel!

PUSH for Life

A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin.
The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. So, this the man did, day after day.
For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't moved."
Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure.
These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man.
Satan said, "Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough."
That's what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.
"Lord," he said, “I have laboured long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimetre. What is wrong? Why am I failing?”
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done.”
“Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?”
“Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have .”
“True, you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. That you have done. Now I, my friend, will move the rock.”
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when usually what God wants is just a simple obedience and faith in Him.
By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves mountains.
When everything seems to go wrong ...
just P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down ...
just P.U.S.H.!
When people don't react the way you think they should ...
just P.U.S.H!
When your money is "gone" and the bills are due ...
just P.U.S.H!
When people just don't understand you ....
just P.U.S.H.


P = Pray

U = Until

S = Something

H = Happens

Who am I?
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart


Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are


I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am Yours
I am Yours


To God be all glory forever and ever because His love is great and unchanging.

Who am I?
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart


Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are


I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours


Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am Yours
I am Yours


To God be all glory forever and ever because His love is great and unchanging.

Who am I?
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart


Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are


I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours


Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am Yours
I am Yours


To God be all glory forever and ever because His love is great and unchanging.

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweet Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper You always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

Your Element Is Earth

You excel at planning and strategizing. You could be a champ at chess or Survivor. Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize. On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you. You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

Your EQ is

127 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence

You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things. Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments. You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it. You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle. You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, or mathematician.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Have A Type A Personality

A You are hyper, energetic, and always on the mood You tend to succeed at everything you attempt And if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top! You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for fun As long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interested You have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

It has been a tiring month.
It's only one month since school started
and yet, I'm already tired, both physically and mentally
Sometimes, I really wonder whether am I the only one feeling this way
Or are there many out there who are like me
this is only to be a tough year
I know that; and I'm sure many others know too
I'll pray very hard that we'll go through this year
That we'll all work hard and effectively
Always remember that there will be light at the end of the tunnel
And that God will always walk with us.

Abba- Happy New Year

No more champagne
And the fireworks are through
Here we are, me and you
Feeling lost and feeling blue
It’s the end of the party
And the morning seems so grey
So unlike yesterday
Now’s the time for us to say...

Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have a vision now and then
Of a world where every neighbour is a friend
Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have our hopes, our will to try
If we don’t we might as well lay down and die
You and i

Sometimes I see
How the brave new world arrives
And I see how it thrives
In the ashes of our lives
Oh yes, man is a fool
And he thinks he’ll be okay
Dragging on, feet of clay
Never knowing he’s astray
Keeps on going anyway...

Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have a vision now and then
Of a world where every neighbour is a friend
Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have our hopes, our will to try
If we don’t we might as well lay down and die
You and i

Seems to me now
That the dreams we had before
Are all dead, nothing more
Than confetti on the floor
It’s the end of a decade
In another ten years time
Who can say what we’ll find
What lies waiting down the line
In the end of eighty-nine...

Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have a vision now and then
Of a world where every neighbour is a friend
Happy new year
Happy new year
May we all have our hopes, our will to try
If we don’t we might as well lay down and die
You and i

First day of school! I'm really glad to be back. But I'm a little shock that every thing is moving at quite a fast rate today...was really tired by the time I reached home...I guess I really had get accustome to the timetable soon...I'm so excited to see everyone back in school. Sort of miss the time we had during breaks...even during lessons...
This is the last year. I must make full use of it...
Had all the J1s coming in today...there was a group from St. Margs...glad that they chose to come here...saw Weiyan outside the sc and waved to her...(erm, wonder what cca would she join?) During this time last year, I was the same as this batch of J1s...Lost, confused and a little puzzled and amazed. But soon, all these change as friendship started to form...hopefully the friendships forged here will last forever and bring sweet memories to one's mind always.
To the J1s: Enjoy the time all of you had together for there wouldn't be a second time when you enjoy yourself so much in your life.
To the J2s: Cherish the precious time left with your friends and study hard for all minor and major tests and exams. May God bless you.

Happy New Year, everyone! Year 2004 has already become history since 35 mins ago. 2005 is here! I'm sure we are all looking forward to a brand new year. A fresh start. A brand new beginning. Started making new year resolutions? Or do you rather not make any cos you'll only end up breaking them? One tip here: Make just one simple resolution and make sure you stick to it till the end; I'm sure you'll be amazed in the end when you realised that you've actually done it!
Year 2005 will be a busy year for me (and many of my friends). It's 'A' levels next year. The major exams that I will have to do well in, in order to get into the faculty of my choice in university. I used to think that "O' levels is the most important. But that was then. As of this year, 'A' levels is the most important thing that I'm going to go through and I'm embraced and prepared for that(I mean, mentally prepared). I believed that "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me". God bless and Happy New Year once again.

The Da Vinci Code-FAQ

HOW MUCH OF THIS NOVEL IS TRUE?
The Da Vinci Code is a novel and therefore a work of fiction. While the book's characters and their actions are obviously not real, the artwork, architecture, documents, and secret rituals depicted in this novel all exist (for example, Leonardo Da Vinci's paintings, the Louvre pyramid, the Gnostic Gospels, Hieros Gamos, etc.). These real elements are interpretted and debated by fictional characters. While it is my belief that the theories discussed by these characters have merit, each individual reader must explore these characters' viewpoints and come to his or her own interpretations. My hope in writing this novel was that the story would serve as a catalyst and a springboard for people to discuss the important topics of faith, religion, and history.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF CLERICAL SCHOLARS ATTEMPTING TO "DISPROVE" THE DA VINCI CODE?
The dialogue is wonderful. These authors and I obviously disagree, but the debate that is being generated is a positive powerful force. The more vigorously we debate these topics, the better our understanding of our own spirituality. Controversy and dialogue are healthy for religion as a whole. Religion has only one true enemy--apathy--and passionate debate is a superb antidote.

SOME OF THE HISTORY IN THIS NOVEL CONTRADICTS WHAT I LEARNED IN SCHOOL. WHAT SHOULD I BELIEVE?
Since the beginning of recorded time, history has been written by the "winners" (those societies and belief systems that conquered and survived). Despite an obvious bias in this accounting method, we still measure the "historical accuracy" of a given concept by examining how well it concurs with our existing historical record. Many historians now believe (as do I) that in gauging the historical accuracy of a given concept, we should first ask ourselves a far deeper question: How historically accurate is history itself?

ARE YOU SURPRISED BY THE BOOK'S SUCCESS?
Stunned. I worked very hard on this novel, and I certainly expected people would enjoy it, but I never imagined so many people would be enjoying it this much. I wrote this book essentially as a group of fictional characters exploring ideas that I found personally intriguing. These same themes obviously resonate with a great many people.

ARE YOU A CHRISTIAN?
Yes. Interestingly, if you ask three people what it means to be Christian, you will get three different answers. Some feel being baptized is sufficient. Others feel you must accept the Bible as immutable historical fact. Still others require a belief that all those who do not accept Christ as their personal savior are doomed to hell. Faith is a continuum, and we each fall on that line where we may. By attempting to rigidly classify ethereal concepts like faith, we end up debating semantics to the point where we entirely miss the obvious--that is, that we are all trying to decipher life's big mysteries, and we're each following our own paths of enlightenment. I consider myself a student of many religions. The more I learn, the more questions I have. For me, the spiritual quest will be a life-long work in progress.

THIS NOVEL IS VERY EMPOWERING TO WOMEN. CAN YOU COMMENT?
Two thousand years ago, we lived in a world of Gods and Goddesses. Today, we live in a world solely of Gods. Women in most cultures have been stripped of their spiritual power. The novel touches on questions of how and why this shift occurred…and on what lessons we might learn from it regarding our future.

PARTS OF THE DA VINCI CODE DESCRIBE THE ACTIVITIES OF THE RELIGIOUS GROUP OPUS DEI. HOW DOES OPUS DEI FEEL ABOUT YOUR NOVEL?
I worked very hard to create a fair and balanced depiction of Opus Dei. Even so, there may be those who are offended by the portrayal. While Opus Dei is a very positive force in the lives of many people, for others, affiliation with Opus Dei has been a profoundly negative experience. Their portrayal in the novel is based on more than a dozen books written about Opus Dei as well as on my own personal interviews with current and former members.

THE COVER OF YOUR BOOK MENTIONS "THE GREATEST CONSPIRACY OF THE PAST 2000 YEARS." WHAT IS THIS CONSPIRACY?
Revealing that secret would rob readers of all the fun, but I will say that it relates to one of the most famous histories of all time…a legend familiar to all of us. Rumors of this conspiracy have been whispered for centuries in countless languages, including the languages of art, music, and literature. Some of the most dramatic evidence can be found in the paintings of Leonardo Da Vinci, which seem to overflow with mystifying symbolism, anomalies, and codes. Art historians agree that Da Vinci's paintings contain hidden levels of meaning that go well beneath the surface of the paint. Many scholars believe his work intentionally provides clues to a powerful secret…a secret that remains protected to this day by a clandestine brotherhood of which Da Vinci was a member.


WHERE DID YOU GET THE IDEA FOR THE DA VINCI CODE?
This particular story kept knocking on my door until I answered. I first learned of the mysteries hidden in Da Vinci's paintings while I was studying art history at the University of Seville in Spain. Years later, while researching Angels & Demons and the Vatican Secret Archives, I encountered the Da Vinci enigma yet again. I arranged a trip to the Louvre Museum where I was fortunate enough to view the originals of some of Da Vinci's most famous works as well as discuss them with an art historian who helped me better understand the mystery behind their surprising anomalies. From then on, I was captivated. I spent a year doing research before writing The Da Vinci Code.

HOW DID YOU GET ALL THE INSIDE INFORMATION FOR THIS BOOK?
Most of the information is not as "inside" as it seems. The secret described in the novel has been chronicled for centuries, so there are thousands of sources to draw from. In addition, I was surprised how eager historians were to share their expertise with me. One academic told me her enthusiasm for The Da Vinci Code was based in part on her hope that "this ancient mystery would be unveiled to a wider audience."

YOU SEEM TO HAVE A FASCINATION WITH SECRET SOCIETIES? CAN YOU COMMENT?
My interest in secret societies is the product of many experiences, some I can discuss, others I cannot. Certainly my research of organizations like NSA, the Vatican, NRO, and Opus Dei continues to fuel my intrigue. At a more fundamental level, though, my interest sparks from growing up in New England, surrounded by the clandestine clubs of Ivy League universities, the Masonic lodges of our Founding Fathers, and the hidden hallways of early government power. New England has a long tradition of elite private clubs, fraternities, and secrecy. On that theme, the next Robert Langdon novel (already in progress) is set deep within the oldest fraternity in history…the enigmatic brotherhood of the Masons.

THE TOPIC OF THIS NOVEL MIGHT BE CONSIDERED CONTROVERSIAL. DO YOU FEAR REPERCUSSIONS?
I can't imagine why. As I mentioned earlier, the theory I reveal is one that has been whispered for centuries. It is not my own. Admittedly, this may be the first time the theory has been unveiled within the format of a popular thriller, but the information is anything but new. My sincere hope is that The Da Vinci Code, in addition to entertaining people, will serve as an open door for readers to begin their own explorations.

HAS ANYONE IN ORGANIZED RELIGION COME OUT IN SUPPORT OF YOUR NOVEL?
Yes, many people in organized religion have come out in support of this novel, and, of course, many have come out in opposition as well. The opposition generally comes from the strictest Christian thinkers who feel the idea of a "married Jesus" serves to undermine His divinity. While I don't agree with this interpretation, this is immaterial because the dialogue itself is a deeply empowering and positive force for everyone involved. Suddenly, enormous numbers of people are passionately debating important philosophical topics, and regardless of the personal conclusions that each of us draws, the debate can only help to strengthen our understanding of our own faith. Much of the positive response I get from within organized religion comes from nuns (who write to thank me for pointing out that they have sacrificed their entire lives to the Church and are still considered "unfit" to serve behind the altar). I have also heard from hundreds of enthusiastic priests. While many of them disagree with some of the ideas in the novel, they are thrilled that their parishioners are eager to discuss religion. Father John Sewell of St. John's Episcopal Church in Memphis stated it particularly eloquently in the press recently, saying: "This [novel] is not a threat. This is an opportunity. We are called to creatively engage the culture and this is what I want to do. I think Dan Brown has done me a favor. He's letting me talk about things that matter."

WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF A CONSPIRACY THEORIST?
Hardly. I'm quite the opposite, in fact--more of a skeptic. I see no truth whatsoever in stories of extraterrestrial visitors, crop circles, the Bermuda Triangle, or many of the other "mysteries" that permeate pop culture. However, the secret behind The Da Vinci Code was too well documented and significant for me to dismiss.

HOW DO YOU WEAVE SO MUCH INFORMATION INTO YOUR STORIES AND YET KEEP THEM SO FAST-PACED?
Writing an informative yet compact thriller is a lot like making maple sugar candy. You have to tap hundreds of trees…boil vats and vats of raw sap…evaporate the water…and keep boiling until you've distilled a tiny nugget that encapsulates the essence. Of course, this requires liberal use of the DELETE key. In many ways, editing yourself is the most important part of being a novelist…carving away superfluous text until your story stands crystal clear before your reader. For every page in The Da Vinci Code, I wrote ten that ended up in the trash.

CAN YOU SYNOPSIZE THE PLOT FOR US?
Sure. A renowned Harvard symbologist is summoned to the Louvre Museum to examine a series of cryptic symbols relating to Da Vinci's artwork. In decrypting the code, he uncovers the key to one of the greatest mysteries of all time…and he becomes a hunted man.

WHO ARE YOUR FAVORITE WRITERS?
John Steinbeck for his descriptions…Robert Ludlum for his plotting…and Shakespeare for his wordplay.

RUMOR HAS IT THAT YOUR DAILY WRITING RITUAL INCLUDES SOME STRANGE PRACTICES. IS THAT TRUE?
Well, I suppose that depends on what you consider strange. I do write exceptionally early in the morning. If I'm not at my desk by 4:00 A.M., I feel like I'm missing my most productive hours. In addition to starting early, I keep an antique hour glass on my desk and every hour break briefly to do pushups, sit-ups, and some quick stretches. I find this helps keep the blood (and ideas) flowing. I'm also a big fan of gravity boots. Hanging upside down seems to help me solve plot challenges by shifting my entire perspective. Okay, I guess all this does sound a little strange.

WHEN IS YOUR NEXT NOVEL COMING OUT?
Because my novels are so research-intensive, they take a couple of years to write. My next novel will be another Robert Langdon adventure (picking up, in fact, where The Da Vinci Code left off). Currently, there is no release date scheduled because the book is not yet near completion.

Merry Christmas everyone! The day we are looking forward to is finally here! And soon, it will be gone. So, cherish it. Christmas is the time I look forward to sending my well wishes to my dearest friends, family and relatives; but of course, it's not the only time of the year that I would do that. It's just that everyone gets extremely happy and excited on Christmas day. For instance, I have so many smses just in 21 mins and I believe that more will come in...thanks for your cards, sms greetings people. Merry Christmas to you too. May your wish come true.
Nowdays, as Christmas becomes more commercialised, it seems to me that people have already forgotten the true meaning of Christmas. It seems like a must to make a trip to Orchard and buy something for your friends or family. To me, a card or even a simple Merry Christmas will mean a whole lot to me! And to be honest, I really couldn't be bothered to go down to Orchard and squeeze my way through the crowd. I would devote this special time to my family and my beloved. Wait, don't be mistaken. This "beloved" here refers to my books. By the way, I had just bought Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code yesterday. Been thinking of this book way before school closes. Now, I finally get my hands on it. Will start reading as soon as I finsh John Grisham's The Client. Erm, I think the Christmas season is overwhelming. I so excited that I just can't sleep. Perhaps I should go and finish up on Grisham. Merry Christmas once again!

Had been spending these few days with myself and my family. Friends? Nope. I'm really guilty to say that. But I'm really too tired to even reply their smses, msg and even blog! What more spend time and go out with them. I mean, it's not a chore to do that, it's just that I'm simply too exhausted to move. Plus, I'm down with a flu. It's really horrible. I think I'll soon use up every single piece of tissue that I can find in my house. Later, I'm going to play a game of Monopoly with my brothers. They have been monopoly-crazy these few days. Kept on playing monopoly until late into the night. I don't think I'm in the best condition to play(you know, with the flu and the dizziness). I think one of them will win tonight's game. Guess that I'm going to be the BIG TIME LOSER(in their words) tonight. But, losing just a single game is not something to be shameful of. Afterall, I've won a couple of games...better not let my bros read this...if not they are going to say:" Losing to such a worthy opponent is nothing".
Anyway, better be serious these 2 weeks, cos school is going to start in 2 weeks time... the J1s will be coming in...it seems like it's only yesterday that I've started college. And now, in 2 weeks tine, I'll be a J2! Looking forward to it? You bet. But come j2, I'll have to study real hard. Certainly look forward to the challenges ahead.

It's really a busy day...(but it's worthwhile, tell you why later). Fill in the feedback form in the morning and went for lunch at "somewhere far", Jurong East at exactly noon. Since we had quite a long time before 2.30, when we had to go NUS to collect our posters, we walked to IMM to shop. We were all so tired, drained out...
It started raining on our way back. So, we decided to take the NUH bus instead as the place is just next to NUH. Since our poster was not laminated or whatsoever, we had to use the plastic covers meant for wet umbrellas to wrap up our posters to prevent them from the splashing rain. We must have look stupid to the security guard...but well...It was raining so heavily that we could not run to the bus-stop. We waited for the rain to stop before we went back. Soon, after about 30 mins of waiting, the rain stoppped. We then made our way to the bus-stop to take the bus back. When we returned, everyone in the lab were admiring our posters. Yes, the researchers. They made comments like, "Nice poster", "so many diagrams, I never had so many pictures for my project before". And we are not the ones who are proud. Our mentors were the ones.
Soon after we returned, we were told that we need a mounting board. We then rushed to Holland Village to get in. Btw, it was drizzling and the walk was quite long. Horror of all horrors, we counldn't find the mounting board there. We were so desperate for the mounting board as we don't want to come tomorrow. And so, we took a cab to Jurong East. After getting our mounting boards and other materials, we took a cab back. We quickly mounted the posters and went down to the admin to give our posters, logbooks,...We were given a shock when we were told that we need to fill in a clearance form. We were keeping our fingers cross that our mentors will be in. Thankfully, they were. Before we left, there were a couple of " Goodbyes", "Good luck" and "visit us some time". Don't worry, we will.

To everyone at AGP lab:
Thanks for everything all of you had given to me during these 5 weeks. Thanks for the jokes, laughter and teachings. Thanks for the wonderful memories. Because of you, I realise that research work is not-all-so boring and monotonous. Have a good Christmas holiday and May God Bless all of you.

*I DReam* By TAufiK BatisAh


Verse 1:
In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly


In my heart
There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are


Bridge 1:
It doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself


Chorus 1:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream


Verse 2:
If there's a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart


Bridge 2:
It doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself


Chorus 2:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream


Middle 8:
I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone


Chorus 3 & 4:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

My poster...final version... 

The apoptotic cells are those whose nuclei are stained fluorescent blue...pretty, isn't it?  

Dreaming of You
Franne Gold & Tom Snow





Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have a dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Corazón
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Cómo te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, cómo te extraño

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly

Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight!

Oh my! I really can't describe my feelings right now...lost for words...can i say that I'm feeling happy, delighted, cheery, buoyant, elated, ecstatic, exhilarated, enruptured, exburerant, over the moon, triumphant,...opps, did I just say that I'm lost for words? Anyway, the reason is as simple as this: The research attachment is going to end NEXT WEEK! After next week, I'll be able to do anything i want! The only sad thing is that I've only 2 more weeks before school starts. If only time would stop on 18th Dec...
Enough of the impossible...the time spent today is quite...i would say, well spent... did my second draft of the report (which SK said it was quite good) and made a few changes to my poster (which SK hasn't gone through). I think I'm most likely going to print my poster on Tues or Wed...Left at around 5.45 to queensway to photocopy something...By the time I reach home, I'm exhausted, both mentally and physically...
Now, after 9 hours of sleep, my energy are replenlished and I'm all ready to start doing what I'm supposed to be doing...you all too...stop reading now and start work!

I Turn To You
Written by Diane Warren

When I'm lost, in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around, yes

And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got
For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true
I turn to you, yes

When I lose, the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach
The sky again, I can do, anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night, yeah

For a shield (for a shield), from the storm (from the storm)
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(For a love to keep me safe and warm)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, uh
For everything you do
I turn to you, yeah, ohhh

For the arms to be my shelter through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who, I can run to, ohh I...
Turn to you...ohhh yeah

For a shield , from the storm
For a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm
(To keep me safe and warm, yeah)
I turn to you (I turn to you)
For the strength (for the strength), to be strong
For the will to carry on, oh ohh
For everything you do (everything you do)
For everything that's true
For everything you do, ohh
For everything that's true
I turn to you

Have been considerably quite a long time since I last blog. Well, perhaps not really. It's just that nowadays, when I reach home, I'm too tired to do anything. Even watching TV and reading magazines. Sometimes, I just wish that time will past more quickly.
Woke up feeling unusally happy today. Maybe it could be because the attachment is coming to an end. 9 more days. You can be assured that I'm certainly looking forward to it. Oh, I just received an e-mail from Aida! I did not expect it, seriously speaking. Her e-mail really made my day. Haven't been in contact with her since she left. And I really don't know what to reply! But, I eventually manage to when I started thinking back, recalling the time we had together. I've known her since I was Sec 2. She was a jovial, cheerful girl. Always laughing and chattering. Really miss her after she left. Come to think of it, I've actually quite a number of friends from St Margs. It's like the potential "life-long" friendships were forged there. It's really a forgetable 4 years. Though life goes on and everyone is moving on with life, the memories remain up there in my head. Even though I may have made friends in JC, they are simply not the same. At least, to me, they aren't.

Christmas is coming! I just bought the Christmas cards yesterday. 21 more days to Christmas. Previous years, I would have been done writing the cards. But this year is exceptional. All because of the research attachment. By the way, the cards are really cute. Hallmark. So cute...You will know what I mean when you all receive the cards. I think it's so funny to send cards to people whom I have not met since Sec 1...It's like I've forgotten how they look and all that...but, we still send cards to each other during Christmas. Weird, isn't it?
2 more weeks till the end of the research attachment. Really glad that it's going to be over soon. I really don't want to repeat any of the experiments that I've done. I rather write my report and do the poster. But 2 weeks is quite a long time to do the report and poster, given my efficency. Never mind about all that. Things will work out when the time comes. Better study and do my tutorials now.

DLR Assay Results 

Western Blot 2 

Western Blot 1 

Wow! Another week had just gone by...phew! It's another busy week. It's seems like what's revolving around research and more research...but, it's good experience anyway. And so, I've decided today that I'll put up another blog soon for my journal on my research attachment. And so, look out for that(this is especially targetted at Lydia...). Actually, there's nothing much to write. What's happening now is just going to IMCB, research and then back home again. It's quite boring and the novelty really wears off. i'm feeling a little tired by all that now. Next week will be week 3 of my attachment. And it'll mark the middle of it. And soon 2 weeks later, I'll probably miss IMCB and by next year, I'll be talking about the fun I had during this holiday. Well, what can I do? That's just me.

note:took this from Joyce's blog. its really hilarious. :) enjoy.

THE YOUNG PERSON'S GUIDE TO THE CHORUS
In any chorus, there are four voice parts: soprano, alto, tenor, and bass. Sometimes these are divided into first and second within each part, prompting endless jokes about first and second basses. There are also various other parts such as baritone, countertenor, contralto, mezzo soprano, etc., but these are mostly used by people who are either soloists, or belong to some excessively hotshot classical a cappella group (this applies especially to countertenors), or are trying to make excuses for not really fitting into any of the regular voice parts, so we will ignore them for now. Each voice part sings in a different range, and each one has a very different personality. You may ask, "Why should singing different notes ake people act differently?", and indeed this is a mysterious question and has not been adequately studied, especially since scientists who study musicians tend to be musicians themselves and have all the peculiar complxes that go with being tenors, french horn players, timpanists, or whatever. However,this is beside the point; the fact remains that the four voice parts can be easily distinguished, and I will now explain how...

THE SOPRANOS are the ones who sing the highest, and because of this they think they rule the world. They have longer hair, fancier jewellery, and swishier skirts than anyone else, and they consider themselves insulted if they are not allowed to go at least to a high F in every movement of any given piece. When they reach the high notes, they hold them for at least half again as long as the composer and/or conductor requires, and then complain that their throats are killing them and that the composer and conductor are sadists. Sopranos have varied attitudes toward the other sections of the chorus, though they consider all of them inferior. Altos are to sopranos rather like second violins to first violins - nice to harmonise with, but not really necessary. All sopranos have a secret feeling that the altos could drop out and the piece would sound essentially the same, and they don't understand why anybody would sing in that range in the first place - it's so boring. Tenors, on the other hand, can be very nice to have around; besides their flirtation possibilities (it is a well-known fact that sopranos never flirt with basses), sopranos like to sing duets with tenors because all the tenors are doing is working very hard to sing in a low-to-medium soprano range, while the sopranos are up there in the stratosphere showing off. To sopranos, basses are the scum of the earth - they sing too damn loud, are useless to tune because they're down in that low, low range - and there has to be something wrong with anyone who sings in the F clef, anyway.

THE ALTOS are the salt of the earth - in their opinion, at least. Altos are unassuming people, who would wear jeans to concerts if they were llowed to.Altos are in a unique position in the chorus in that they are unable to complain about having to sing either very high or very low, and they know that all the other sections think their parts are pitifully easy. But the altos know otherwise. They know that while the sopranos are screeching way on a high A, they are being forced to sing elaborate passages full of harps and flats and tricks of rhythm, and nobody is noticing because the sopranos are singing too loud (and the basses usually are too). Altos get a deep,secret pleasure out of conspiring together to tune the sopranos flat. Altos have an innate distrust of tenors, because the tenors sing in almost the same range and think they sound better. They like the basses, and enjoy singing duets with them - the basses just sound like a rumble anyway, and it's the only time the altos can really be heard. Altos' other complaint is that there are always too many of them and so they never get to sing really loud.

THE TENORS are spoiled. That's all there is to it. For one thing, there are never enough of them, and choir directors would rather sell their souls than let a halfway decent tenor quit, while they're always ready to unload a few altos at half price. And then, for some reason, the few tenors are always really good - it's one of those annoying facts of life. So it's no wonder that tenors always get swollen heads - after all, who else can make sopranos swoon? The one thing that can make tenors insecure is the accusation (usually by the basses) that anyone singing that high couldn't possibly be a real man.. In their usual perverse fashion, the tenors never acknowledge this, but just complain louder about the composer being a sadist and making them sing so damn high. Tenors have a love-hate relationship with the conductor, too, because the conductor is always telling them to sing louder because there are so few of them. No conductor in recorded history has ever asked for less tenor in a forte passage. Tenors feel threatened in some way by all the other sections - the sopranos because they can hit those incredibly high notes; the altos because they have no trouble singing the notes the tenors kill themselves for; and the basses because, although they can't sing anything above an E, they sing it loud enough to drown the tenors out. Of course, the tenors would rather die than admit any of this. It is a little-known fact that tenors move their eyebrows more than anyone else while singing.

THE BASSES sing the lowest of anybody. This basically explains everything. They are stolid, dependable people, and have more facial hair than anybody else. The basses feel perpetually unappreciated, but they have a deep conviction that they are actually the most important part (a view endorsed by musicologists, but certainly not by sopranos or tenors), despite the fact that they have the most boring part of anybody and often sing the same note(or in endless fifths) for an entire page. They compensate for this by singing as loudly as they can get away with - most basses are tuba players at heart. Basses are the only section that can regularly complain about how low their part is, and they make horrible faces when trying to hit very low notes. Basses are charitable people, but their charity does not extend so far as tenors, whom they consider effete poseurs. Basses hate tuning the tenors more than almost anything else. Basses like altos - except when they have duets and the altos get the good part. As for the sopranos, they are simply in an alternate universe which the basses don't understand at all. They can't imagine why anybody would ever want to sing that high and sound that bad when they make mistakes. When a bass makes a mistake, the other three parts will cover him, and he can continue on his merry way, knowing that sometime, somehow, he will end.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Soprano
1. The rest of the choir exists just to make you look good.
2. You can entertain your friends by breaking their wineglasses.
3. Can you name an opera where an alto got the man?
4. When sopranos want to sing in the shower, they know the tune.
5. It's not like you are ever going to sing the alto part by accident.
6. Great costumes - like the hat with the horns on it.
7. How many world famous altos can you name?
8. When the fat lady sings, she's usually singing soprano.
9. When you get tired of singing the tune, you can sing the descant.
10. You can sing along with Michael Jackson.

Top Ten Reasons for Being an Alto
1. You get really good at singing E flat.
2. You get to sing the same note for 12 consecutive measures.
3. You don't really need to warm up to sing 12 consecutive bars of E-flat.
4. If the choir really stinks, it's unlikely the altos will be blamed.
5. You have lots of time to chat during soprano solos.
6. You get to pretend that you are better than the sopranos, because everybody knows that women only sing soprano so they don't have to learn to read music.
7. You can sometimes find part time work singing tenor.
8. Altos get all the great intervals.
9. When the sopranos are holding some outrageously high note at the end of a song, the altos always get the last words.
10. When the altos miss a note, nobody gets hurt.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Tenor
1. Tenors get high - without drugs.
2. Name a musical where the bass got the girl.
3. You can show the sopranos how it SHOULD be sung.
4. Did you ever hear of anyone paying $1000 for a ticket to see 'The three Basses?'
5. Who needs brains when you've got resonance?
6. Tenors never have to waste time looking through the self-improvement section of the bookstore.
7. You get to sing along with John Denver singing "Aye Calypso."
8. When you get really good at falsetto, you can make tons of money doing voice-overs for cartoon characters.
9. Gregorian chant was practically invented for tenors. Nobody invented a genre for basses.
10. You can entertain your friends by impersonating Julia Child.

Top Ten Reasons for Being a Bass
1. You don't have to tighten your shorts to reach your note.
2. You don't have to worry about a woman stealing your job.
3. Or a preadolescent boy stealing your job.
4. Action heroes are always basses. That is - if they ever sang, they would sing bass.
5. You get great memorable lyrics like bop, bop, bop, bop.
6.If the singing job doesn't work out, there's always broadcasting.
7. You never need to learn to read the treble clef.
8. If you get a cold, so what.
9. For fun, you can sing at the bottom of your range and fool people into thinking there's an earthquake.
10. If you belch while you're singing, the audience just thinks it is part of the score.

1 week had gone by. Believe it or not; I'm actually counting down the days till the end of my attachment. 19 days to go; "Endure", I always tell myself. Don't be mistaken. It's not that I don't enjoy it. Doing experiments, designing them, and proving hypothesis, I enjoy it all. It's just that the long hours tire me out. Other than that, I've no other complaints. I've already learn so much in just one week. It's not just things that are related to the area of scientific research, but it's also things such as working with other people . Enough of these personal thoughts, let's talk about what I did today. Early morning, we drew out the plan for this week. It looks hectic and packed, but the actual fact is that it is actually quite lackadasical. It just require hours and hours of waiting for the process to be done. Thus, we can squeeze in a few others irrevlevant experiments and techniques so that I can learn, and be prepared for the future. Let's gp back to the main aim of this week:" How can one be sure that the expression of NQ01 and HO-1 genes is due to the ARE mechanism?" The answer will be revealed this week, so stay tune. Well, today, I transfered the sy5y cells to 2 6 well plates and leave it in the incubator overnight so that it will be ready for insertion of the plasmids tomorrow morning. After that was reading and more reading. Now, I'm so tired from staring at the books for such a long period of time. Better go to bed now. Sweet dreams, everyone.

Just came back from choir altos dinner...at Joyce's house...it's considered quite fun...ok, I won't use fun...at least, it's quite all right. We had steamboat. I would say that it's nice considereing the fact that we had fishballs, sotong balls, meat balls, mushroom balls,...you get what I mean, right? Well, the dinner lasted for like 1.5 hour? Was really full that I started to play with my food...well, it's a habit, I guess. Had been doing that since smss days...After thedinner, we went to Joyce's room to slack and to digest the food before stuffing ourselves with the bobochacha cooked by Jee Cheng's mum. Seriously, it's the first time I've eaten bobochacha in that colour. I only ate those that are white in colour before. Well,...Anyway, we also had a mini sectional there...The set-piece...I'm really at lost as to what to say...We left her house at around 10.30 and i took a bus with Jee Cheng to the interchange...during the long bus journey, bond formation took place between the 2 molecules of us...really talk...I mean, those things at I tell her are the stuff that I don't normally tell people. Erm, maybe I did, considering the fact that I always open my mouth and talk...Never mind about that. The same goes to her too...I must say that she's really sweet and thoughtful (erm, wonder whether she'll read this or not?). She smsed me to see whether I reach home already or not? I mean it's not my style to do that...so, I thought that's rather nice.
Well, I really tired. Time to sleep and get rest. Sweet dreams.
(P.S: I'll put gel-electrophoresis photo which I did on Friday so that you all can compare and contrast).

Just read from aud's blod that Uncle Stan (as he's fondly called) is transferred to ijtp...so sad...can you hear the sound of my heart breaking into million pieces? Not literally...but, it's really saddening...i may not be able to see him during teachers' day, or any other occassions...I would surely remember those lame jokes of his, his care and concern for us (even as we had graduated), and his many outstanding qualities and his kind and encouraging words...

Today is indeed action day, as promised. In fact, it's action, action day. I really did a lot of experiments and learn a lot from today alone. At 9am, we harvested the cells and extracted the RNA content. Really have to be quite patient here as similar processes are repeated over and over again. Nevertheless, they are necessary. The harvesting and extractin of RNA took about 1hr 45 mins! Next, we used the spectrophotometer to determine the concentration of RNA...quite a lot of calculations involved here. After that, we start to prepare for RT-PCR. The protocol was easy to follow and everything can be done in just one step. The whole process of RT-PCR will take about 3hr 25 mins! this leave me some time to take a rest and to note down everything.
In the afternoon, we started on gel-electrophoresis to separate the DNA fragments. After the gel had set, we "ran" the gel.
At 4pm, we attended a meeting. The meeting was an informal one. Everyone just snack and talk...no pen and paper involoved. Looks like researchers have powerful memory. The meeting was really fun and stress-free. Look forward to next week's meeting.

Gel electrophoresis 

Gel electrophoresis 

Research Attachment- Adventure at IMCB

I've seen my sy5y cells today! They've been successfully cultured! Shall post a picture for you all to see! Anyway, today had been quite worthwhile...I treated the cells with different compounds today! And come tommorrow, I shall harvest them and get the total RNA out. (ok, i mean extract the total RNA). Read up the procedures for the extraction and the principles behind them, and the one step RT-PCR process (that is going to be done on Friday!). Wrote in my log book lots of things...including the procedures for treatment and stuff like that.
Discovered something today. Actually, it's not that I don't know this. It's just that I have not worked with such small volumes and quantities before. I have to prepare the solutions to a every, every small concentration. It's all in microlitres and stuff like that...when I was asked to convert, I was sort of stuck...it's not that I don't know. If given time to work it out, I would certainly be able to do it. But on the stop? It's a little tricky. Blame it on the lack of practice. Anyway, tommorrow will be a busy day for me, so, I think I better get some rest. Good night.

Sy5y cells treated with NGF for 8 days...see the neurones? 

Sy5y cells at higher magnification 

sy5y cells 1 

sy5y cells